Saturday, August 06, 2005

The Other Side

I haven't come here to forgive the things others have done to me.

I've come here to forgive myself.

I walked through the ruined gates and murky waters and passed the ruined tombstones and and when I walk back out I'm going to leave behind every injury I've ever done to myself.

I need to lay it all to rest and move ahead.

So I'm going to forgive myself for all of those awful things I told myself over the years: I was stupid, ugly, worthless, dirty, a failure and a disgrace. Words and deeds more hateful and harmful then anything inflicted upon me by my worst enemy.

It's important that I forgive myself for making a life a chore, a task a sentence instead of the gift of adventure it was intended to be.

I've come here to forgive myself ... once upon a time my worst enemy.

I hope she will become my friend.


At 7:48 AM, Blogger Karen said...

It's so fascinating, and somewhat sad, how many of us needed to forgive ourselves, isn't it? I did the same. The images you post are simply gorgeous and haunting, Anita, and I can tell that you are now immersed in life's grand adventure!

At 8:25 AM, Blogger Anita Marie Moscoso said...

No kidding, if you caught someone treating a small child or animal they way we treat ourselves we'd have the law on SOMEONE ... you'd never stand for it.

as to the pic...
That's actually from a cemetery called Evergreen in Everett Washington.

It's a pretty weird looking place under normal circumstances. That flooding isn't a's overflow from the hills in the cemetery itself. Whenever it rains or the snow melts this is what happens.


Anita Marie

At 4:51 AM, Blogger Heather Blakey said...

I shed some tears when I read this Anita Marie. This is very potent.

At 5:14 PM, Blogger Leonie Bryant said...

I can so relate to this Anita Marie - thanks for writing this powerful piece.


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